An Answer, To A Question From A Reader

Kindred One,

This is an answer to a readers question, "What is it like to have Meniere's Disease and be in crowds?"

Dearest Reader and Guest,

I speak only from an I basis and share that I have had moments in time when I have felt a rush of anxiety while in large crowds, but I am not certain if I could say that this is totally from the Meniere's Disease. With the total loss of hearing in my left ear and poor quality hearing in my right ear, created by Meniere's, I can say then that yes, I feel a difference while in public's large crowds. There are times I feel strong and walk well with my implant sitting out up there and am okay and will chat and speak with Folks in a crowd. Waiting in line to gain entrance to the stadium for a game with ten's of thousands of other Folks, having a Bud and waiting for the game. Dear Reader, I'm trying not to let that become a piece of my Meniere's and these symptoms. In my case, there are so damned many that it tests my sanity. Yes, the crowds, I have been to concerts by George Michaels, George Strait, Stevie Nicks, Alan Jackson, amongst other artists and have attended activities on occasion in public, with POW Wow's, Pride Festivals, and such and what like. Since I was struck by this Meniere's, I have kept the attitude that I want to push my envelope as far and as strongly as I can.

I have had issues with Meniere's in these situations. Some at the festivity and mostly while I was facing symptoms to begin with. Unfortunately for me, I tend to have symptoms at some level or degree twenty four hours a day. So what am I to do is keep on doing what it is I have to do. I live to live and learn. By the way, I can get anxious as hell while standing in line at the market from the gagging, sweating, dizziness and the wish to lie down on the floor at the store where shopping is a pleasure. God.

That was an mighty fine question Kindred One. I hope I gave some sort of perspective based on me and my experiences with Meniere's. Please keep in mind that I am not a professional and do not represent myself as such. Then, it is my belief , the crowd issues will happen only as it is to happen. I have no control. Neither does any other person with Meniere's Disease. I wish you well with your adventures returning to safe crowds and enjoy your life immensely. I truly hope I have shed some light on this matter for you my dear reader. And Kindred One, if this is something that is particularly difficult for you, I would ask you please to consult a Pastor, parent, or therapist.

Love, peace, and more peace,
Mario