Kinfolk,
Have been awake plus twenty four hours. Tried to sleep with negative results. Was able to relax and lay in the dark to watch the shadows of a flickering flame bounce about the room.
When this happens I sometimes get twisted and knotted up. Yesterday became today but there wasn't an official change of the guards. It's like my mind hasn't the controls I am accustomed to having. It's as if two days became one.
The Meniere's attack I had the other day is still playing mind games. Had an asthma attack in the midst of the night and it stirred the meniere's good and plenty. Yes, Friends, I am exhausted. My body, from my lower back to my wrists ache and are sore. I just can't sleep right now.
The worms and the sharp stabbing pains that strike and go have been troubling. There has been two spiders rush across my scalp this morning. I am perspiring about my skull and neck.
Am dizzy. Dizzy times too many. I am nauseated. Bad. The nausea had my throat in it's grasp so tightly I ended up tasting my break fast twice.
The sounds and noises played a HUGE roll in my lack of sleep last night. What the hell was I to do? I don't want to go through coming up with a list of these bastard noises. So, rather than be tortured - as I have permitted countless amount of evenings before - I got up and worked on a piece of art and craft. Brenda, does not like it when I "pull an all nighter" as she puts it...
...look, I learned not too long ago - to let go. And Let God. Sometimes I can work it. Sometimes no. Who am I to ask Great Spirit any questions?
Life goes on...
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