My Kinfolk, Kindred and Relations,
Thinking I will discuss the Meniere's stirring me up plenty today. Am tryig to remain focused and not let my mind drift off into some sort of distraction or another. So please, sit back and read with me what it is I and my body are feeling today.
The Meniere's Disease symptom nausea is heavy in my throat and upper chest this afternoon. The nausea has not become productive. As of yet. The gags and sensations of impending vomit is always present. Just some days are better than others. Today is a day high on the 1 - 10 scale. Hoovering around seven to nine. 10 would be puking my innards out.
There's been a soft "tinging" that comes and goes in my Deaf left ear. Something similar to the sound of a small Tibetan bell when struck by the wooden object. These are not ringing nosies - these are "tinging" sounds. My right HH (Hard of Hearing) ear has had moments of silence several times since yesterday evening. Especially last night. So bad it was all I could do to just lay in bed and listen to the silence in the one good bad ear hole to the brain. It's crazy. There's a roar at present in my Deaf Left - an unexplainable roar. It's so damned loud. Perhaps the sound one would pick up while standing underneath and behind a water fall is the best I can describe.
I am perspiring quite heavy like to be sitting here in an air conditioned lodge. It is mighty hot out of doors, so today I've remained inside. I am uncertain as to whether I should task out there this afternoon. Maybe later, I'm not sure. I do not mind perspiring and or sweating when I'm out of doors on a hot Florida afternoon, but to be in air condition and sweat drips and drops is an all together different subject.
I have been exceptionally goofy with walking about. Stumbles on my own six feet have created a couple of tumbles and near falls. Hyper-sensitive to my steps and environment. Bumping into walls and furniture. On days like today I wear my socks and sneakers. This is best because the shoes aid my mind in believing I am more steady on Earth Mother's surface. God, knows I've had enough falls in my days...
...it's not a natural thing for Folks to up and fall. It just can't be natural.
The sounds of Swamp Land have just invaded my the ear that is OOS, Out Of Sound. The left deaf one. For being one with an ear that is Out Of Sound, this bastard right here sure picks up a lot of damned noise. I simply can not stand the term "audio hallucinations" anymore. I dislike it a lot. I am listening to sounds at this second coming from my Deaf one. I can't explain it.
Today, as bad as I wanted to sleep I avoided permitting myself the opportunity. I must continue to push life to it's fullest. In my Spirit's I have no other choice, you see. I have much life to live and I want to live life to it's fullest. Yes, there are times when those words are easier said than done, but I have seen the hell that accompanies this Meniere's Disease and so far it hasn't killed me yet...
...don't plan on letting it neither. Meniere's is here and it's here to stay. I suspect the bastard's just going to have to adjust to me.
Ciao.
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