I knew that there was going to be one slow communique...
...that's fine by me, you see, except for my bride and daughter's, I expect nothing from my family. This is the way it it has been forever in my life and My Path. Yack-yackity-yack and I hear or see nothing back. Promises and word after word, so.....it's the same old nasty shit. So I move along. Eh?
And - I so try to move along brightly...
...it's just I don't understand that part of my family. That branch of my family tree.
Something happened way back then, when we were all separated. It does not matter should it be time or intention. So, I move along. You all did...
Next week at this time I will be in Cherokee. A place I belong and have great faith I shall some day pass on in the Land of those who came before me. Sometimes I am scared and afraid I have ashamed and embarrassed them who did in fact, come before me and those who walk Mother Earth with me or along a similar Path as I.
If it really was not for one event we are to attend we would leave Friday. So we adjust and I move along...
Meniere's today has been omnipresent. I would grade today a "6," because I of the symptoms I have had to deal with. Yes, I did in fact sleep today. Woke up early just to go back to sleep a short time after...
...the sounds and noises have been problematic. Please...
...I am so trying to be careful and not get myself all worked up or try not to task a shade too much. Me, my Spirit's, my multi's and I are really trying to use caution and walk with extreme alert, so as not to injure myself.
I pray to Great Spirit to protect me and keep me clear of this fucking Meniere's. Anything and everything but an all out attack. Please?
My plan is to beg my daughter to let me please borrow her lap top while we are Smokey Mountain Top. So I might communicate with Kindred.This is where our cabin will be. Right there on Cherokee Reservation. Smokey Mountain Top. Just no fancy Holiday Inn or Howard Johnson's...
...my Spirit's are already there. I have seen myself walking the grounds of Mother Earth at and near our cabin. I feel the beat of Mother Earth calling my name. I listen as the Wolf directs me home. I smell and listen to the stream pass off our back porch. Too much time has passed since our last pilgrimage. Just too damned much time. I exhale a sigh and know that soon I'll be home with the Spirit's of them who did in fact live and came before me. I share my love with them when we make pilgrimage. I pray and hope this will get back on to an annual event.
This dizziness has provoked an ugly nausea...the perspiration has visited me today. To many times. I want to puke...
...earlier today was a smooth day. This late afternoon, not too much. I feel sick and feel the need to discontinue this communique...
...these are the things I don't want to happen before or while away. Please Great Spirit!
If I could be there right now - it would've been so.
The worms are back and active. Bastards!
I have nothing else to to say but I'm going back North up to get Back South bound...
...that's the way it is when you're a Mixed Breed.
My Life and Path as a Mixed Breed...
...Back Down South.
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