I Am What I Am and I Am Not Meniere's Disease

I Am What I Am, and this list provides a snap shot of who lives here in my skin with this Meniere's Disease and it's contributing factors as well as the other odds-n-end's that make me and myself, who I Am...

I have and live with Meniere's Disease.
I am not the meniere's Disease.
I love the smell of freshly cut grass.
I love the smell of a fully functional farm.
I am sometimes fall on to Mother Earth for no particular reason.
I enjoy the Atlantic Ocean. And feel the same for the Gulf of Mexico.
I love Key West. And am mad for Miami Beach.
I love the smell's of the beach.
I miss so dreadfully the privilege of driving. The meniere's took that from me.
I'd love to think that someday soon I shall have long walk abouts.
I love my wife and daughters with all my heart and Spirit's.
I am happy to be losing weight and gaining muscle.
I like looking at what exercise has done to my arms and chest.
I can sometimes be so adolescent.
I am afraid of Horror movies. Unless they're Vamp's, Frankenstein, or Were Wolves. No Zombies!
Clowns have always scared me. This is a "coming out" for me. I passed the gene on to my Sam.
I love our three hounds. I love Abigail aka Ting-Ting as if she were my Kin.
I love to laugh. Long and loud and clear.
I love old school cartoons.
I was a radical vegetarian for 15 years.
I eat meat today. Again. Buffalo, gator, turkey, beef, fish, I'm still getting back to my roots.
Roots?
I am a Mixed Blood.
I am Hispanic with Spain, Canary Islands, Morocco, Dark Skin, Cuban and Italian from my Pa.
I am Cherokee two generations removed and a White Southerner for generations from my Ma.
Yes, sometimes all of these Races and ethnicity's clash.
In my life, this is normal.
As was living "across more Rail Roads" than I can speak of.
I've played with more teams than the entire NFL has teams.
I have never been afraid to blend in.
I have never been afraid of any particular Race or another.
I pray for all of Great Spirit's Children.
My Relations. Which represents all Kinfolk and Kindred.
I pray for our enemy's, real or perceived.
I have cried out loud for the injustice's I've seen on the television.
Or in the press.
I am Single Side Deaf. On the Left and Hard of Hearing on the right.
I know what Serenity feels like.
As I know what tranquility is.
How it feels to walk in Grace...with Grace.
I dislike gossip.
I am afraid of lizards. All lizards.
I pray for all of Great Spirit's Creature's. Yes, even the lizard too.
I read daily.
I miss my daughter who lives far, far and away.
I used to have the largest Afro in High School.
I am inquisitive and analytical.
I enjoy swimming bare.
My family name is Big Bear.
I cry at movies, Television shows, radio and commercials. Oh, please.
I remember when television was Black and White.
I occasionally will over emphasize the passing of wind.
I am 6'2" and weigh 267 pounds and losing.
I have lost a shirt size in t-shirts and shirt size.
My pants don't fit the way they used to.
I love Starbucks Coffee Company.
I miss working there.
I miss my favorite lattes and tea's.
I miss the thousands of Folks I would cross paths with.
I miss my Mom, Dad and little brother Dave.
Two Faced Folks work my nerves really bad.
I love to pay sincere compliments.
I can be stealth like with my verbiage.
I love long rides in the country.
I am most at ease on the Cherokee Reservation.
The Eastern Band of The Cherokee Nation in Cherokee, NC.
I love the smell of The Smoky Mountain tops.
I love the sound of a Crow's call. I believe it to be David paying me a visit.
I enjoy wearing Levi 501's and a nice shirt. And my Doc Martin's.
I love to garden on my hands and knees.
I love to feel Mother Earth under my feet.
I have a prayer circle in the N.W. yard that contains the Red Earth from where my Spirit's dwell.
I would love to go on.
This is just a snap shot of my life today, the 15 February 2012.
I could go on. But I won't.
My Garden calls me by my family name.
I wish you love, peace and more peace.
Me

No mas.