Good Night Nikki!
For some reason I woke up a bit left of blue this morning. A familiar state and shade of blue. It's the blue I can remember having in my heart as a wee boy and as a man of my age. Blue is blue, no matter what the age...
...I know that my daughter's bring a shade of blue to my Daddy heart. Not because of their conduct or anything like this or that. Just having One's baby's be their age and so adult. They're beautiful Grown Ass Women, as I say it! My wife Brenda is also an awesome and beautiful woman who is always on my mind and in my heart and Spirit's. I worry for my Bride and all two of my Baby's. Their energy and my energy run through not only my mind, but my heart and Spirit's as well. Saw them both come into this world from my wife's private parts. Most damned incredible thing I ever did see. I sure am a proud Pa and I love them both so very much. And this bride of mine is an extraordinary woman, who is loved madly!
All three snore too. Oy! The drama!
My youngest recently commented that she experienced a conversation gone too far. I am reminded today of how this feels by a conversation I had just minutes ago. My dearest friend, don't be angry at me for too long! I know I stepped on it.
Meniere's, I suspect has had an affect on this state of blue I find myself in...
...my left Deaf ear is full of crickets and frogs. My right ear has the bell of a Rail Road crossing warning. Over and over and fucking over. Is not being to good on normal reception/hearing.
I am nauseated and uncomfortable. I am misting and perspiring lightly. I can feel this on my t-shirt and my nipples are erect from rubbing on a cool moist piece of clothing. My Adam's apple has been tight in my throat. Please, I just don't want to vomit this afternoon. Earlier this morning I had some break fast return to my mouth. So bleeding gross! The worms are at play. Have had issue with stuttering today.
The dizziness tells me I am tipsy - as if I have sipped on bubbly for brunch. No, I have not and no, I don't anyways. This creates the unsteady pace with witch I walk presently. I have cuts and bruises from where I have bumped onto wall corners or door frames...
...doors themselves.
Later this afternoon at 1530, I will have a face to face with Sir Dude. I think this comes about in a timely fashion. I sure will benefit by a visit with my therapist, Sir Dude today. Yes, I'll speak of the blue thing too. And the ache and hurt I feel in my Spirit's...
...this is all a part of my getting better. My body is my business, you see. This is all "My Better Health and Mental/Emotional Health Plan". From where I am sitting I have seen some pretty neat and cool adjustments and taking the change in stride as much as I might. All while I maintain a focus on what lies ahead of my Path.
There was no notice in the post about my application to receive assistance from the Mass Transit Authority. Please Great One!
Good Afternoon Sheena! Hello to my Bride Brenda! I love you all so much!
I am finished and have no more to say
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