I am have difficulty with sharing what I'm about to share tonight. I am embarrassed by somrthing that sounds so absurd and irksome all in one same breath. At this moment, it doesn't matter who uttered these words. It's the where-what-the-with-all, and how this was expressed. Via telephone. No shit. I will digest them and wrap my head with them, then I'll speak with her...
It has been reported to me today that being Deaf and Hard of Hearing can no longer be an excuse...I was told earlier today, me being deaf and hard of hearing is no longer an excuse...
...being deaf and hard of hearing is no longer an excuse.
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Yes, I've shed some tears today...on more than one occasion. Not a one from these words though. There's this gut feeling pushing me towards a little follow up. As in asking from which way was the wind blowing when these words were expressed. Perhaps a bad day at work? Or maybe some of this or some of that? I don't know. This is something that will lay still in my Spirit's...for a minute or a few.
The sounds coming from my right ear are high loud and have been a cruel form of torture for alot of the day. The sounds of a huge waterfall has been pouring in my ear hole! My left deaf ear has been picking up Morris Code or some Top Secret communique from Cairo, for what seems like hours since it started. I am dizzy, sweating and nauseated as I type tonight. The pattern of much sleep continues...yet, it is my hope to continue staying awake more with each passing day. With-in the next few minutes, I will be back to sleep. For good rest. I will have P.T. in the morning.
My nesting is wanting to return...I have started with going through my compact disc collection to clean them, place them in order of genre, and then chronological order. I reckon there will be more than a few that I'll be able to sell or trade. More like sell, I hope. That's Financial Matters and we have not even gone there yet. Oh, Lord.
In all that is now and present, I do my best to make an ugly and unpleasent situation (meniere's disease & related) as positive as possible. Not only for me, but for those who cross my Path. Them who are a part of my team. I continue to push the evelope good and plenty hard...this Path, takes nothing less from me...or I of myself.
...to have to hear those words, "being Deaf and Hard of Hearing is no longer an excuse"...
...reminds me that Walking My Path with my chin up is paramount... similar to Walking In Beauty...which is where I ultimately want to be.
For the present, I'll live life one day at a time. One breath, one step and one sentence at a time.
Walking My Path
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