Visited with He Who Touched My Brain today. I acknowledged, I have felt him look into my Soul. He has been the only one permitted there in a life time....I mentioned this only because I observed him doing it today...
...the out-come of our gathering was not as nice a visit as I would've hoped for, but, what it did do was almost empowering. To have "the" validation from the tests, the conversation's, the connections, all in a matter of two hours...has changed my look on Life. It has sunk like lead weight in my Core, to know that I am not mad. That there are reasons for the things I'm experiencing...every day of my life. Like today.
What the going's on's all about is me getting on the same beat as all and who-ever is a member of my Health Care Status Team . Whether it be with my Family, my Medical Health Care , Mental Health Care, Insurance Connection Team...The One Far Away, an awesome young person who has gone the extra FEW miles with and for me, and now, my Legal Matters Team, Them Who Know The Law...we talked today. The care, love and respect provided me is beyond my words...
...I am a blessed and fortunate one to have so many people who look up to me, instead of down, as I think...blessed to have them who listen and am honored when I am heard...
There is an ugly cold and dark figure with-in me that has me wrapped up in a cold and dark place...despite of, such blessings...I ask,am i worthy?...
...it is maddening, to see and know that I was once to provide...
...and now I'm not. I am silent in shame...
...a walker I used, today.
...kept Walking My Path...
p.s. I am compelled!
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