This morning was a well-paced therapeutic journey, with my morning starting early and prepared for Miss. P.T...we did push the physical me, which provoked symptoms of dizziness, nausea and perspiration, as if I had just completed a quick jog to the corner to catch the ice cream man and back - which is a sad situation en'it? I can't run. Once I caught my breath and balance, I felt good and positive energies...to work and push muscles that have grown too placid...to feel my muscles. What? But now, I contemplate, did I really push the envelope? Was there more I could have done...why didn't we take a walk about? Why didn't I assert myself and ask why not? We'll walk about next session. This I am certain of.
Sir Dude, my Mental Health Care Team Member, was able to see me with a right away approach and we had a good session. There was something, though, that kept it from being an excellent visit and session. I feel I missed out or something slipped in my skull that did not get worked on...or at times was not there in mind, spirit, and body...my energies scattered. I feel as if I have left my Sir Dude thinking (and I thinking) that I could have done more to push and work it. The heavy sense of disappointment is beating a drum in my heart...sending me a message, and I'm positive this will be translated soon. This was my bad. Not Sir Dude's. I know he came ready and prepared. Even got me in session a bit early and we had a very good exchange. There was something I did not take to the plate and I'll figure this shit out.
Alright then, Sir Dude assigned homework, and I will look up and read daily Native American prayers, my prayers, and pray to remember there are millions of folks out there dying every day from their diseases...all over our Earth Mother, everyday! I will pray to remember to be thankful for where I am on this trail...I will pray, too, for my relations to have patience with me, and pray that I too will learn to have more patience with I and I. Oh, Lord.
Dr. Psych and I will meet in the morrow at eleven.
I thank them both...my Mental Health Care Team mates...and me, Mario
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