The pain on the left side of my skull is describable yet hideous in it's very nature. I wonder, is this the paining of the recovering process or is this the pain of having had my head sliced and diced just two mornings ago. I don't know. The site still bleeds and tells me alot about pain without saying a word.
I have followed the regimen as directed by He-Who-Touched-My-Brain to the every minute detail. Doing this has done me alot of good and I am thankful to doctor for the "do's and don'ts"...
...but, Hun, at this moment I feel what I can imagine the affects of being hit on the head by a base ball bat or a base ball itself traveling at eighty-some MPH would feel like. Whomp, whomp, upside the head, whomp-whomp upside the head. I have had surgeries on both sides of my head and with every one of them a different and unique recovery.
It's queer to this guys eye that I can feel, but can not see much of what went on back there behind my Left deaf ear. Doctor says this is the "once and for all" one, so let me see. And please, also to have less pain, please?
This sumamabitchin' pain is so bad, my right eye orb is in some state of pain because of it. What? Yes, I pinkie swear!
I slept until 1600 today. From early yesterday evening. Brenda has been here to check in on me every once in a bit. She has changed gauze and would provide hygiene to the area where the blood had slid down and dried. There is an odd as hell transparent skin orb applied about my implant and the site of surgery. I can't tell anything has happened. Yet! By the sight of my eye orbs, I see that my neck has been ill affected. By touch yes, I sense change. Not seeing the change yet. And by the sweat provoking pain and nausea, hell yes. Doctor was up to some snippin' and a grinnin' for sure. We have fought a Nobel battle and I would do this again if my Doctor were to tell me that something has come along- blah, blah, blah. Please, we have faced so many different surgeries. A couple or three procedures in clinic too...
...what about those bloody series of life altering injections. Eww, please...
...time and time again I have placed my life and head into this doctors hand's. There is a bond connected and established between a doctor and his patient. I know this based on what prayers have said in my simple place of thoughts and safety and well being.
This pain reminds me of what we did Monday.
The Meniere's reminds me of why I offered my head, skull and all contents to my Doctor. As I sit and attempt to communicate clearly - the pain on and in my Left Dear Ear is torture. The Beeps with-in same ear reminds me that sometimes I can and do pick up what sounds like communications from a long ago era. Every damned day to include all of the day since I awoke - I have had the beep and beeps. Kindred, what more can I say?
Oh please, before I forget, my awesome and loving Hound Ting Ting is having issues with Grampie's White Plastic Ear! Haha! Bless Her Heart! She pains for my pains but is unable to look grampie in the eye's.
I pardon my self and wish all peace.
God Bless, He-Who-Touched-My-Brain and his beautiful family, and Great Spirit, please always protect the hands of the man you decided to bless with the knowledge my body's function's. I would take a bullet for this extraordinary fellow earth Being. No brainer.
Thank you.
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