Then Wednesday Came...

The weather is so pleasent all the windows and doors are open...just a few puffy white clouds and blue clear sky. It's 74 degrees in the house. Cool.

Saying good-bye has never been a plus thing for me. I'm the sad and blue sort who crys at funerals, does'nt matter who's in the casket...I cry at T.V. commercials, T.V. shows - I would swear that "Build A New House", is made just to make folks boo-hoo, I do. The type who cries at certain songs, especially those damned country songs I love so damn much! I cry at the reuion of military folks and their Relations...I cry when Taps is played and with our National Anthem. I cry at good-byes. It's the truth...have always cried at good-byes...

I have cried today. I have laughed today. I have lived a life today.

Should Great Spirit, call my name, then let me go. Today would be a wonderful day to die...as it has been a brilliant day to be alive.

My Deaf left ear aches today and I am listening to trucks roaring by. As if on a highway...18 wheelers doing the too fast too furious in my Deaf left ear hole! My right-good-bad-ear plops...have noticed this affects my balance good and shitty like sometimes. I have not yet slept today. Have been staying as busy as possible to keep from letting the exhaustion catch up to me.

Have nausea bad and have had vomit twice. The dizziness at this moment seems easy...as if tipsy. Not drunk, just tipsy dizzy. Episodes of dizziness are way too common in my day-to-day...I medicate when it gets really bad. Sometimes, I try to man-it-up.

Oh yes! The sensation of having a large worm between my skull and the flesh on the left side of my skull is back and squirming aplenty. The "Door Bell" is back too. Pain.

Have completed the book "The Day The World Ended At Little Big Horn, a lakota history, written by Mr. Joseph M. Marshall III. In one word, this book was brilliant! I was able to learn more and very truly enjoyed the read. I am now reading "The Killing Of Crazy Horse". This one thus far has been pretty damned good reading.

My heart hurts for this good-bye, but good-bye it is.

In the mean time, I'll walk this way on this Path of mine.