I Talk About A Secret

Kin Folk and Kindred One's,

I wish to share a secret with respect to my being SSD, Single Side Deaf - OOS and HH. Out Of Sound - Deaf, on my left side and Hard of Hearing on the right side.

The hearing from the right has become affected more so by the Meniere's Disease, it becomes more difficult to hear as the days go by. Though gladly, I share with-in the next two weeks, I shall be wearing a hearing aid on this side of my skull, while I wear my Baha, Bone Anchored Hearing Aid on the left, where it is that I am without sound or balance and have an implant.

My guests who return here to a safe place and read my utterances are aware of the horrific constant sounds and noise that I have within both of my ears. I mean, every day, every moment, with every exhale and every inhale there are sounds and noises in my near dead ears.

The noises I am experiencing at this instant are a steady beep-beep-beeeeeep-beep-beep, and beep and beeping on, in my left deaf ear hole that also has this aura of being out in the forest; maybe the National Everglades, in the latter part of the afternoon - when it is time for bugs, and larger bugs and birds of all kinds come out for dinner and the sounds of frog and gator in season, and for shits sake, that's what I have in my left ear hole alone right damned now! The right ear hole to the brain has listened to a squadron of WW II fighter jets stuck in suspended animation shits straight over my lodge! Um, no, this has been off and on all day today and I have only been up since noon. (That's another share) There have been cryptic messages sent. Sounds and noises.

Any way's, the secret is that I may never be able to cut myself off from what takes place "inside" the walls of my skull, but friends, I have learned that I am so able to turn "off" the sounds and noises coming at me from "outside" and into of my scalp's ear holes. Right. Oui?

Whenever. Whatever. I simply plug the right ear up and I don't hear shit from the out of my ear. Complete silence from the outside - in. For peace of mind and sometimes inspite of - I say fuck off listening to voices that complain and leach off of energies that are hard fought to maintain and sustain.

What ever may come, a voice, sound, noise or conversation that is negative. Oops...

...plug it in, plug it in.

Naw Boo, don't judge.