Crazy Making Ears, Deaf Vs. Hard of Hearing, Huh?

Hello there Kindred One's,

My ears have been absolutely crazy making for hours and days. I try to sleep through them, sometimes it is noises in my deaf ear that wakes me in the night, shocking stuff that has made me holler more than a handful of times. I mean, God Bless America and all, but this shit is going on and has gone on just too damned long. Duration, intensity, the variation. I refrain and fight from the use of profanity, honestly. Then, I forget. For fucks sake ...

 ... the sounds of today are blaring in my deaf left ear, at this moment so indescribable. It's just so damned loud and it blares, and howls, and my right ear plops. I sit here a man blessed with an implant for the BAHA, the Bone Anchored Hearing Aid, and am hard of hearing on the right. Speaking of which, I visited with my Audiologist this morning, she sized me up for the ear bud that will soon be a piece of my hearing aid. My dearest Dr. Blanca, I am forever indebted to you and He-Who-Touched-My-Brain for this gift of honor, and yes Ma'am, I am honored and humbled. You have touched my spirit's. This hearing instrument is awesomely handsome, so sleek and so much the complexion of my skin. We will have to wait two weeks for delivery of the ear bud, then I'll have the fitting and return to a state of better hearing from the right ear. I have not yet visited the welcoming web site, but I do have it and am glad to share this info with Kindred. The address is; www.oticonusa.com. I will be there in just a minute.

Dearest Kindred, I share with you that there are times when the sounds and noises get so harshly out of the imagination, that I am over come by anxiety, and have experienced panic. The most mind blowing is having sounds and noises come from my left deaf ear. Night and day. I swear sometimes I feel on the verge of requiring emergency care, but, what am I to report the purpose of my visit to the emergency department. So loud, I grow bitter and angry and sad and blue, and I just don't fucking know what to do. Dear God, sometimes like now, my ears compete for which one will be the loudest, the most freaking obnoxious and shit.

I have Macklemore here with me, hangin' out as he sings just for me. Into both ear's. Yes.