Them Damned Voice's!

Meniere's has been bothersome today. Have been nauseated to the wish for vomit. The dizziness has been mid to high trouble for me in my brain, mind and Spirit's. Have had sweats most of the day. I would love to have a break from this often embarrassing symptom. Something else that's quite embarrassing is when my balance and coordination goes all goofy on me. I hope that I am not observed by too many folk in public when I get into the Human Body Bumper Car Mode...bumping into stuff at the supermarket, walking into walls, car's and such. The sounds have been ridicules. My deaf ear is listening to crickets for most of the day...listening to the bastards as I type these keys. My right good bad ear, earlier this morning and afternoon had the roaring sound of water fall and has gone silent twice. Just for a few moments anyway and at this moment, am listening to Pat Matheny's, "Last Train Home". Over and over agian...it's one of those "My Life - My Path" soundtrack songs. I remember hearing this song
with both ears and it has alway's been my favorite song by Mr. Pat Matheny...it sort of lives within the stream of my blood...

Visited with Sir. Dude this morning and had an excellent gathering for sure. Much was discussed. Compliments, observations, evaluations...Sir Dude, brother, please! Oh yes, I've lost weight and have gained a sence of control of "the sugar" issue by diet alone, and am just starting to feel as if I may have broken the year's long winter trailing me for mighty close to four years...

...Seeing a where I was and where I am, in my brain's eye orb...the where I am between my ear's is different than what it is, you see. Sir Dude, and Relation's, I've gone weary, and am able and learned on when to put , "Hell Yeah, I'm fine" paint-on-the face and yet carry a heavy burden in my heart. I so want to live the "Hell Yeah" and "I'm fantastic, thank you!", type of days again. I miss those day's. Them day's I took for granted. Hmmmm...this whole meniere's thing has affected my entire life. Shittin' really...

The all of my Life...

I get it. So it is on the day's like today when the Pony Under Butt, gives me the full speed ahead...and gives me something to hold on to. Feel the wind blow threw my hair as we ride like lightening through what it is placed before me and sing a prayer for continued days just like today...a day and time when I wear no paint. No mask.


...I scream silently a prayer from my DNA to make this so...

I will take this pony to task! And P.U.S.H., "Pray Until Something Happens"! I promise you that! I promise me this too!

WAIT! I have just captured one of Canada's satellite's! It's in my deaf left ear. No really, though I did just hear/have a series of beeps. Loud too!

The morrow brings MRI #2. This time with the contrast. Yes, I am nervous. Please...

I'll continue to deal with the voices and other guests the best I can muster...keep the sad heart from getting to blue. True?

Alright, then.

p.s.
They all work against me, you know?