Today is 6 April 2011, early in the afternoon with clear blue wide skies and not a cloud out there. The temperature is cool in the mid-70's and Earth Mother's still wet from yesterdays rain. The water gauge at the air port must be busted because we had some really deep rain out here by the preserve. I don't have a creek out back but I swear I had one back there yesterday - with it's own current even. Last night Great Spirit, Blessed us with a wonderfully chilly night with low fifties'...enough to have to bring out a blanket tucked away for next fall. Done so with gladness. My bride and daughter (and no appointments) permitted me to sleep this morning. Thanks Girl's!
Meniere's today is right down the middle of the 1-10 range. The noise in my left deaf ear has been clackity-clack-clack-clack. The noise just like the toy "clackers" from back in the 1970's...which were eventually banned because folks were butt-heads with them. Pardon, but back to meniere's, my right-good-bad-ear today is plopping and or full on and off...the hearing is same, on full and well or off, as in no dang good. The noises in same ear are the sounds of dozens of tiny crickets. Nausea is mild and am not perspiring at this time. Dizziness is also mild...rather like a sort of tipsy. As usual, am having to walk with a purpose, as tipsy is as tipsy does.
Monday, I had blood work done at the laboratory. Them folks stuck me seven times before they had their test tubes filled! And there was several! I would usually have been upset by the hit and miss routine, but hell, I had more understanding for them I think than them for I. What's his name tried twice and caught an attitude with my veins...tried to get him to settle down, but he had enough of look and find, so he passed me to his supervisor. After her attempts failed, the lab techs decided to call over a nurse from the doctor's practice. A friend, "Country Sunshine". Po thangs! Dang sure used me as a lab bear for sure. Didn't they?
Yesterday, met with Sir Dude, in the morning. There was much to talk and we did not waste any time. I am aware that reading my perpitrator's name and words last week stirred up the pot good and plenty. Memories, flashbacks, and smell memories, have troubled my Heart and mind. This mess has stirred up memories of other times and places I was sexually abused by other perpitartor's...........I'll be seeing Sir Dude next week. I think it best we save the bi-weekly experiment for another time. For now any how...
...yesterday afternoon visited with my neurolgy doctor, She-Who-Intimedates-Me...she has ordered an MRI for tomorrow. Girl please, I hate these exams as I am quite claustrophobic. I am a rather large fellow, weighing in at 275 and am 6'2" tall...them silly ass MRI tubes are simply not meant for big folk like me. I mean really. This MRI will visualize/make clear a pinched nerve in my neck...She-Who-Intimedates-Me, suspects the sensations of having worms between my skull and my skin are from nerves affected by this pinched nerve. Along with dreadful pains I have owned for sometime now...
...worms sound so more interesting to me. Really.
Think I'll step out of doors for a while. It really is a beautiful day out there...maybe I'll get on my knee's to pray and then get a little dirty in the mud. I may be a Drama Queen Honey, but there's a little feller inside who loves to get all dirty and muddy time to time...
...think maybe today is a good day to die...as it is a good day to be alive. I am blessed.
There's a pony under butt. Not sure how strong a pony yet, but we're going to push it today........peace to all Relations.
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