This plate over flowing with perpetual shit before me has brought me to my knees...I simply do not know how much more I can endure. It's come this far - it's gone to far.
There are no doubts and way too many clues that lead me to know and believe strongly I had a vertigo attack on the yesterday, sometime rightly after 15:00...the duration of the vertigo lasted approximately 15 minutes. This occurred while sitting and reading. The dizziness post attack was sickening and created nausea so powerful my throat is extemely sore today. Which compounds an already painful and affected throat. The swelling in my right ear and sounds of locomotives in my back yard...I sweated so bad, there were drops of perspiration dripping from the curls on the back of my head. On the verge of fainting, it was necessary I lay down a few minutes to capture the me that was on the verge of madness. Eventually, I had to go bed...my body and innards sore and pained...to sleep.
I awoke late this afternoon and expect I shall be back to bed within the hour or two. For a return to Dream World...feel safer in Dream World. Even though this is where I'm at my most vulnerable, which is due to the Deafness and being Hard of Hearing, I am a sitting/laying duck. Alas, I believe, I would rather be asleep than awake...left to deal with meniere's symptoms and the madness from whence it came.
Prior to going any further, it is a right and proper thing to share this: I have had numerous side effects from the uber drug/antipsychotic that will remain unnamed. Dr. Psych, discontinued it this afternoon. I assure you, if other folks requiring this medication have same side effects as I, there are or will be issues.
The side effects I have experianced and am experiancing are a shrinking and painful throat that even when drinking water has pain, the dizziness from this medication compounded with the dizziness from meniere's is dreadful and confusing. THE VOICES and HOWLING OF WOLF continues. I have continued to have bouts with crying - I mean bad sobbing and uncontroled crying, crying. Today I passed a green movement - which in my mind sends red flags popping up everywhere and no, no spinich or greens or three pounds of salad. JUST out-of-the-blue, I pass green dung. This is simply wrong.
I visit Sir Dude in the morning and shall have a visit with Dr. Psych, in the afternoon...
My Crystal Ball says that sometime soon, I don't know when, but soon, I will be placed in hospital. Or maybe a place hospital like. I don't know. I am just saying...
Yeah, just saying...
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