If what you say is nothing is forever, then why does it seem so in my skull...between my ears. Between the one that is deaf and the one that is my right-bad-good-ear. Makes me wonder how I've made it from there to here.
I want to be one with the hemisphere...spread my wings as wide as these wings will open and take me to a place far from here. Not over there or out-there or somewhere or somehow - just let me get out of this fear.
Sho you right that I've got the rest of my days to live, but what's right with living when one can't hear. Listen to silence while I wait for the next spinning cycle in my brain to engage and lay with me down here...
...which gives me all the time in this whole wide world to think of the different ways I can hurt myself...harm myself. To cut, pierce, slice or shear.
What? I haven't said anything that isn't clear. What? Maybe listen sometime...listen to the sound of a tear...that has fallen off my face and is now away from here.
What?
Meniere’s disease is characterized by episodic vertigo, fluctuating hearing loss and tinnitus, Attacks of the affliction occur under conditions of stress. Its pathology was first revealed to be inner ear hydrops through temporal bone studies in 1938. Although subsequently proposed as a disorder of water metabolism in the inner ear, its pathogenesis remains unsolved. The present study aimed to assess the link between the inner ear
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Mario from experience I know that LOUD noise brings on episodes of vertigo. I know you are deaf in one ear but when you listen to your music so loud you are asking for an attack of vertigo. Try something soothing, try to relax. I don’t know what your diet is like now, but are you still trying to eat vegetarian? This is another choice I don’t agree with. You need protein. I have vertigo and only have 1 maybe 2 episodes a year. I try to have an inner peace and eat foods that are feeding my mental stability.
I love you cuz but you are doing so many things that concern me. This last blog has me worried.
My dear cousin Ande', thank you so very much for taking a few moments to share your thought's, idea's and knowledge about Meniere's Disease and talk of the attacks of vertigo you have and have had in the past. Just saw my doctor today and things are moving along. The site of my most recent procedure has healed and I am now able to wear my BAHA with no issues at all. I have been demoted to the use of a walker from a cane for whenever I step outside...have been instructed to not venture out of doors with out supervision or go in my pool or walk down the street or...
ReplyDeleteMusic has always been such a huge part of my therapies in the past and to this day I still incorporate music into my daily life style and therapy. On occasion when I am riding one of my waves and crash, rather than do nothing I am compelled to do something. One technique I use is infact to listen to music loudly. It is not too often that this happens, but I will push that dail up...sometimes this helps me - sometimes not. In the past I would do this very often, but today, I know and realize that I am dooming my own last hearing ear. So, I have had to find other means with which to vent. I listen to mostly Native American music anyways. Some Pow-Wow, little drums, but mostly flute. R. Calos Nakai and Douglas Spotted Eagle are my favorites...there is truly never a day go by without music. If not Indian, there are so many different genres I listen to. For me, the symptoms that provoke the meniere's are wide and varied. I will positively keep aware of what you shared should there be a the next time I find myself with the stereo dail in hand.
Ande', you mentioning meat is a superb subject and a tiny bit crazy for me, because I have begun to reintroduce meat into my diet. I felt as if my body was telling me what you shared. And yes, it's true I really regret not having any of my Aunt Bunny's roast when we visited in July. Oh, it smelled so good too. I think next time we visit I'll partake in the comsumption of the meat prepared by my dear Aunt. For real. My body has been speaking to me for a mighty long time...something told me it was time to listen, and then you send this note...wonderful crazy!
Cuz, please let me assure you of the inner peace that does reside with-in my Spirit's. Yes, sometimes I do get angry - even enraged at my self...and yes, I sometimes "go there" but, I do have a deep and personel inner peace. I have even established a Safe Place in my home and a Safe Place in my yard...a place where I feel nearer to my Great Spirit.
From my Inner Self, I thank you and your's. Your message and reaching out to me moved me Ande'. It means more than I think you understand.
I love you Ande'. Please give my love and respect to everyone down South.