Dearest Kin Folk, And Kindred Ones,
Please, let me share and inform, maybe even report something or two. Yes, good Kin Folk stuff and friendship stuff and mighty happy reunions, but Honey's, there's no room for drama here. My One Right Good Bad Ear Hole, longs to hear voices. I so wish I could have a chat with Mom and talk rubbish over coffee and her biscuits. Oh, my. But in my heart, I recognize something is happening here. I don't want to give too much credit to the medicine company's. You know? The Great Spirit and I, are hard at work here.
First of all, I wanted to share that I have logged off of two Internet social networks. The Time on My Path, requires more connecting with The Great One, The Angels and Saints. I begin to work on and strive to have less drama in my day to day and tip-tapping on my dear slow-ass machine here, just wouldn't be acceptable at this time. God Bless us though! WHO? I do want more time with my Bride Botswana, I am certain this topic is an influence in my lack of pen-men ship for months. A writers block that has reflected hard on my Self and it reflects negatively on me and I try harder and push myself harder to not bring too much drama myself. Ah! Silly Ass! I mean, it's just I don't have time for games and other peoples shit and their drama is their drama is more drama. Shoot, there's really enough in mine, ya know?. Pinkie Promise. This change in me, which has just come about over the past couple days, and I feel as if I have lost some weight. Good-goodness. There's no doubt that if time permitted, I would master some of these things in technology and become just as stealth as my daughters, and even my seven year old and ten year old Baby Sister Boy's! Oh Yes, and yes, they're Rock Stars! And, I love them with all my heart. Oh America, to have had same as I love my First Nephew, 1017, who is Father of two of my most beautiful Pretty, Pretty Princess Nieces in All of the USA and Canada. Oh, I am such a very Proud Uncle of many. I am Blessed to once again, do what ever this comes down to, with the talking and exchange of what is it we are to do with my current state of health and make it stronger. All of the this and that's too, all this and that. I say, please, I have been blessed with just a bit of knowledge let me use now, and well, I haven't felt this happy in a long long time. My young nieces, and nephews teach me, my Wife is the absolute very best good friend forever too! I love this feeling in my system, it's a hard to express love from another time, and living it in the present.
I am no longer in mourning. A happiness not felt in years has raised to the surface a time in my heart and spirit's when the good things that happen are too few. I admit that, I have going on, oh my dears must remain in my area of energy and aura. Oh, what feelings I have had bounce about in my head, I welcome happiness back into my life. I am curious if they know this. (The Little Folk of The Forest). I wish to travel soon, like maybe after surgeries and implants and more changes have been coordinated, ensure all, we have done is properly and awesomely wrapped around my sweet thick ass skull at this very moment. My face feels good to smile, and my chest feels a wonderful Earthly beat in my Center. Soon though, maybe, a disengagement of sorts. Such as in disengaging. Stopping for a few minutes. And of yes, Kin Folk, even if it's just up down South a little while. Head over to Tennessee a spell. Or damned something! This drama. The illnesses and diseases. The things NOT to say to folks who are Deaf and Hard of Hearing. Or sick to near fainting from the fucking Meniere's Disease. For shits sake, Ma'am, I am doing my damned best. So, I'll continue. All know is that every piece of my life form, understands it's time for a nice holiday. Lord, Disengage Time, please?.
I am reunited! I am happy and in turn, wish to pass some little along. There have been many changes come to battle me and My Path and life. These damned illnesses, much battle and Wars are all over me. On my breath, sleep, pain, and hope. But, I push on! Sometimes I push with every bit of my energy. I speak and may share about this damned Meniere's, that today for example, has had freaking birds or the prairie singing in my Left Deaf Ear. I am an Anomaly, per my Brother and Fine Good Doctor, He-Who-Touched-My-Brain. I'm special when I hear that word. I feel special when I hear it any ways. You see, once upon a time, Good Doctor, sawed into my skull - an extraordinary experience! I trust my doctor with my life.
Sometime let odd stuff go in my head, unimportant it seem, until something about the body scream. To push and push and to push and push and push, pushing until so many fell into the water and swept up the stream. I give the War Cry. And I Cry for the One's who have died before me. I have pushed wanting to scream I was the Warrior who scalped Custer's tent mate! (Custer was not scalped)
I am truly trying to be more and more of a happy individual. I have long been a positive one. And it is I who have found peace in many areas of my life and My Path. I know what Serenity feels like, I know what Serenity smells like. I am blessed, you see? My dearest sisters. My dearest Aunts and cousins. My Beautiful Wife of 44 years, my awesome daughters who can handle their shit. Oh, God, time pass us on by again, you know.
I am walking the Path of Forgiveness. Forgiving others as I say you, who I have offended in words or deeds, or of remaining silent when I could have spoken words, I ask your Forgiveness. I ask for Great Father's Forgiveness. My work here on Mother Earth is not done yet. There are many story's to be shared with them who come next. As I begin to work on this Spiritual Energy of Forgiving others is a mighty tough process. I struggle greatly letting all go - then let it go. Again, until what I want out is gone.
I am A Survivor. I am a Warrior, and I am a Christian fellow. I am of a Mixed Blooded Group, Horrible and dreadful things had been done to me and my Family's through our Family History. I believe in My One God, and God, spreads blessings upon us all who spread love and peace amongst our People. In this case, God, has included many. Family, our neighbors and helpful folks.
Great One, for me, the greatest test of all is learning to forgive my self, I am so unworthy,
Heavenly One?
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