Facial Spasms, Apply

Greetings,

Since waking this morning I have had so many facial spasms that I stopped counting.

There just happened to be a few minutes when I was able to observe from the out side in what it is my face does during some spasms, today for example, the spasms induced expressions differ from one to another. My lips get all goofy and twist to the left - for shits sake, almost as if motioning to someone in the supermarket to where they need to direct themselves. My left eye goes even more droopy and without cause I have this gimped left eye, it's like I look like I want to sleep on the left side of my face, and on the right, I am wide awake. What? Chen, if I knew, you would too.

My dear guest, look, please do me a huge favor. First send me a giant hug. Seen? Then, even if but for a flash, imagine the last cramp/spasm, whenever or wherever you may have had it. Now  apply it to your soft supple and sweet cheeks, jowls, and the innards of my face and scalp. I can not explain what is going on when the left side of my face gets all cramped up - sometimes groaning and crying come naturally. I am a Man, yes, but Billy, remember that time we pulled our back muscle? Sometimes life happens and I cry. Why lie? I cry in therapy.

In the garage or in the closet. Sometimes out loud. Sometimes into my pillow.

Yes, like lightening striking within my neurology without notice. I am left dumb and struck. There is nothing I am to do but wait it out. Today, I massaged my face from the inside out. Oh, shit, that hurt me so bad. My neck and back are pained and yes, I have taken medications as prescribed. I must. Absolutely do so. Mommy?

This is my business, this awesome body God let me borrow, my health, mind, and Spirit's. It's necessary for the success of my Better Health Business Plan to do what I must and move along.

I had an asthma attack earlier today while waiting at therapy. Poop. Dung. Crap. Shit! Etcetera.