As I sit here in the cool comfort of my home on a rainy Winter's evening, I am perspiring something awful. Really didn't mind the darkness of the storm, or the claps of thunder as rain and lightening passed over-head. I was home alone and was able to cry a few good tears.
This perspiration in my meniere's disease is something that is provoked by the nausea and or dizziness, at which time both are high and vulgar. All I am able to do is medicate or do nothing. I gagged so bad earlier to day that a pecular sore throat has developed...like only the left side is sore. Did not vomit though. Every time I gag or throw up - I get flashbacks from my bulimia days.
Someone said "shhhhhhhhhh", "shhhhhhhh", over and over again today. In my left deaf ear and lasting several minutes. This was as an especially bad and difficult few minutes for me..."shhhhhhh-ing" is a flashback trigger somewhere in the folds of my brain.
I want to throw up so freaking bad!
Yesterday, my hearing was off by major percentage. Several times losing hearing in my right ear. Today, it's crisp, I could hear the Hawk screaching directions to Her soon to be one year old chick. Have had moments of total silence today too.
I observe the pulse pump through my wrist and admire the beat of the juice that keeps me walking this Path. Amazed.
The coordination of my walk is off center. Clumsy and awkward...
...I keep on walking. One knee at a time.
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