I might've called this entry, The Unfortunate Business of the Home Bound, but damn, I'm getting through the lowest I have ever been in life, and only My God, knows I've had my good share of high's and low's...oh, me, me, oh my, have I been there.
I've let this gloom put me in a place where not only am I in a deep dark place, I have permitted this gloom to enfold the Meniere's Disease,(today, there has been a loud roar in my right-good-bad-ear and The Swamp as well. My left ear silent. Nausea and dizziness a 7, I slept) and the recently diagnosed diabetic. Along with some deep heart felt subject matter that was dealt with in December, and it's residual affects/effects - I know in my Spirit's, a huge barrier has been placed between Relations and I.
I am able to accept whatever issues I may be dealing with and am in a position to say I'm working on what I have to do. Doing my best.
...but, I be damned, this shit is lonely! Yes, I know I sleep alot. Sometimes the sleep is better than listening to the sounds between my ear's, or the dizziness and nausea....sometimes, sleep is better than listening to the silence...but damn, can't someone hook the ole goat up with a call or a tele-gram or a fax or something...hell, even if it's just a "holla"! I do thank all relations who do maintain contact. I love it!
New good news Kindred! Doctor Psych has, I hope, found the right medication! No ill side effects and I suspect somethings going on inside...
...between my ears and with-in my Spirit's, something's stirred.
My Dear Brother I read but don't respond today I will.
ReplyDeleteRember what is most Important..
It's not having everything go right;
it's facing whatever goes wrong.
It's not being without fear;
it's having the determination
to go on in spite of it..
What is most important is not where you stand,
but the direction you're going in.
It's more than never having bad moments;
it's knowing you are always bigger than the moment.
It's believing you have already been given everything you need to handle life.
It's not being able to rid the world of all it injustices;
it's being able to rise above them.
It's the belief in your heart that there will always be more good than bad in the world.
Remember to live just this one day and not add tomorrow's troubles to today's load.
Remember that everyday ends and brings and brings a new tomorrow full of exciting new things.
Love what you do, do the best you can,
and always remember how much you are loved.
Love you big brother..
I feel compelled to say.... I would rather not spout advice without having been in one's moccasins.
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