Good Evening Guests,
On Friday of last week, while doctor and I were having a brief talk, I in haste shared with He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, who had commented about my asthma as we were taking care of pre-op for surgery to be held on 26 March 2015, that my Asthma was really bad. This is where in haste shared that my asthma was better, oh how I so wished that my asthma was better enough. And that I would not need more appointments, more doctor bills, more tests else where to take care of my medical business here in my TGH. And oh, Lord, how I have been so excited about getting my new implant that I am so trying to believe I am doing better with respects to this asthma that sucks the oxygen from my lungs every day of life, I use my inhaler everyday. I try to believe I am a healthier person, when I know all I can do is hope and wish and pray. I have told myself that my Meniere's Disease symptoms are at bay when I walk in nausea and dizziness every day of life! That I vomit frequently and it's so easy to projectile vomit with no control. I wish my falls are easing, and yet my falls continue and continuing to scare me near horror! My facial spasms continue, 'though with this diagnosis, I do believe my spasms lessen. My Hyper Somnia rules my body and mind, the sleeps continue to keep me bed ridden for hours in the high teens and on occasion will sleep for +60 hours in one week due to one Meniere's attack. I've had two in last five weeks.
BUT, I must believe there is something in my skin that is getting better. No, it's not these damned pains that take advantage of this body every day. Everyday of life! And how I wish to curse and cuss! And, oh how I wish these pains were lessening. I tell Doctor my asthma it is better, it is to some degree, true. Yet, I do not know how to measure my asthma in medical terms. "Today, patient used emergency inhaler five times. That is better than seven or ten, yet all I can do is pray and wish it to be better for sure. Not a hoping it's better - but better! Considering I have had no hospitalization stays in over a year, in this case, yes, my last year has been better. As long as I had my inhaler with me.
It seems as if physical related crisis and issues pop up every day. I have had more operations and surgical procedures on my head, than I can remember. Still. Maybe it is that I am learning to accept my disabilities. Embrace them and work on all of these issues and believe. Believe finally, that these issues will in fact get better. Believe.
Yesterday evening I decided it best that I have a Breathing Test with the Worlds Best Pulmonologist, for my peace of mind and also for the Peace of mind for my doctor. I would have had worries and that always affects my respiration's. I have had asthma since childhood, I may not be having difficulty at this moment, but like my Meniere's it does as it wishes in and with my body.
So, I called this morning for an appointment on 11 March 2012. Then my doctor of Pulmonology and I will meet for a respiratory follow-up, report and surgical release for surgery to be held 12th day of March. The ultimate confirmation of need occurred last night when I was awoken for an inhale of my emergency inhaler.
God, guide the hands of them who will be attending to me these next several weeks. Please guide us as the team we have become, please let all know how much I am thankful and appreciative for the hard work done and work hard onward in improving my state of health.
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