The Sounds Blaring Between My Ears

Please.

My Reader's, my Kin Folk and My Spirit Kin,

There has been such a block of my gathering thoughts and words to tip tap on here. I mean, I have never tried to not write, or jot down thoughts or utterance's. I speak and move along, really, at least or unless I have had such tough times getting on here. I mean, this spot where I sit is no longer comfortable for me to relax and write or talk and chat. It's really a shame, should anything ever happen again, I'm going to talk more than I have. But. No, the tapes keep playing in my skull...

...and replaying. I do my business to forgive. There are times when shit is done. Some times there are times when times get uncomfortable it is to be near. Even still. I have felt the fear and the vision in my eye balls that I wish I could have an eye doctor laser my eye orbs - while I'm wishing and I'm hoping poop won't happen.

There are things happening and life continues. I follow all of my doctor's orders. To the pill. It's my business but sometimes I feel totally out of place and forget a dose, this is when I get all anxious and hyper and begins symptoms of several diseases hit me hard and I can not point to which is which, but I know, I am obligated to do the right stuff, the right things to have me be a healthier person and begin to deal with the bad issues now. Just make it so and then there is no more.

I am thinking the new anti-depressant is beginning to work in conjunction of all the other tabs, pills and injections I may have to indulge myself with. I'm not prepared to share the name of either or medications I take at this time. Please understand, since I was last here much has gone on. Injections continue to be used with the hopes, as a Team, we'll beat these Neuro/Cervical Spine Pain issues.

The sounds blaring between my ears. My three ears; my Left Deaf Ear is washed daily without fail. Behind my Deaf Left Ear, I have a BAHA Implant and abutment. I also am blessed to have my BAHA 3. I am informed I am qualified to have my older hearing processor replaced by the BAHA 5. Such a huge bonus because we get to keep both processors! I love the idea of have two and my hearing aid for my Right Hard of Hearing Ear. All three are loved and washed daily. Dear Readers, Guest, Kin Folk, and Spirit Kin, I have never stopped loving my blog - I seriously admit that I was blocked by something in my skull. I say soon, I'll be back. Peace, and Love To One and All!!