Meniere's, Emotion's and I, 14 Dec 11

Salutaions Relation's...

I sit here to tip-tap a spell. So please, kick off your shoes, maybe sip on a cup of green tea, a vial of ginseng or a cup of coffee. I would love to sit here with you to communicate, share and tell memories for a few minutes.

Our Lodge has gone empty of and very quiet with-out the wonderful and dear visitor's we've had. My Neice's and Nephew have returned from whence they came. Here but for one week and the bonds of love, Kinship and Relations have been connected. Instant Karma happened before my very eye's and my Spirit's, saw what I saw...

...and in a place just not too-too far away, the re-connect between two brothers has been brought forth by the Great Spirit, Path's that Trail-Along-Familiar-Path's. The bonds of brotherhood run deeper, the link's to one and another's heart is sacred, kinship matured by the years of growth that even the years could not chip away. The knowledge that the Relation's have been here all along. All of which solidifies in my Core the beleif and now the knowing, that yes, this that runs deeply in the blood. I am Blessed and am forever thankful and am indebted to the Grace Blessed and taught by My Great Spirit...

...My God.

I have shed many tears since their departure yestreday morning. Have actually cried morning, noon and night, and have again shed tears this morning. Look, I'm okay with this. It just so happened that My Being was affected in such idescribable way's. The love, respect, courtesy and dignity are all Life Long connection's and impressions upon my heart and Spirit's. So I share with you, that these have been tears not of sadness, but of of a profound Gladness.

Every once and again, when the wind chimes a certain way, I hear my Lil' Coco, humming and singing as she goes along her way...

Meniere's was and has been an unkind strain over the past several day's. I don't want to say too much about the meniere's, so then, I will be quick about it.

I have sweating going on right now as I have alot of times. Sweating like now, with it dripping down my chest, trying to cling to my t-shirt. To the perspiration and misting. Yes, there's a difference.

I have had bouts with active nausea. Not today, although I am an adam's apple short of having the feeling in my throat.

The dizziness has been harsh. Has been off and on and so very absorbing. My balance and coordination have at times been so effected, it was necessary for me to sit and catch and or lay and catch myself. Too many trips, too many bumps and just too damned many moments of having to catch the Earth Mother.

I was able to sleep when Our Kinfolk went across the Bay for the filming of the movie Lil' Coco is in. Slept long nights and with their visit, my Kinfolk were able to keep me awake most of day time since the last vertigo attack, which was 02 December 2011.


My Hearing has been from fair to poor. Have had many noises and sounds in my right Hard of Hearing ear. At this very moment, I sit still and am able to listen to what sounds like thousands of crickets and cicadas. As if I had my i-pod ear bud in place. This noise and such, affects the way I listen or do not listen to music or view or do not view the television. I have had dreadful "pops!", that have been frightening. Have had too many moments of total silence - which in fact has affected listening to another speak. The ploop's and plop's continue.

The Left Deaf ear has been back on activity. Very active! I hope my dearest Kinfolk, understand that sometimes I would rather listen to nothing than listen and or view something poorly. I loved the conversations we had! And their patience with me was kind and respectful. I think this is a practice I will make more of here at home...

I have picked up frantic beep's in this, my Left Deaf ear. Have listened to Morris Code's beepity-beep-beep's from what I believe to be a passing satelite that continues to spin around and round our Earth Mother...

...not realizing the Cold War has been over for quite sometime now. Coordinates, I reckon.

And now for something completely different...

It is right good and clear that I may share this with all Relations. I am in a nice seat at this moment. My heart and Spirit's feel love from the All of my Relations. A mighty nice seat to be sitting on too. To All Relations, I say I Love You.

This is all...