Home Health Care

Started Home Health Care last week. An RN, will visit me a few times. For what has been mostly a Q & A session and take my vital sign's. I truly do beleive my RN's BP cuff is broken. My RN, is preoccupied about my BP. My cuff and my doctor's cuff say something considerably different...So now I am in the position to assert myself and ask my RN to please replace his piece of equipment. I mean really, and yesterday's number's were no doubt affected by the event's of the day...or, I suspect a debate or two will ensue. I expect a call from one of my doctor's any time because of RN's report...I think the problem is RN does not have ear's.

Started Physical Therapy on this past Saturday. I think I am doing well but am forever afraid of my next step...as if I await an accident or fall. Wait! Have you ever fallen forward into the bath basin while brushing your teeth? I have. Yesterday was my first.

I am willing to place all of my eggs in one basket, but, I have done this too many times and have grown weary with the concept of another failure.

I push and I push this envelope called, My Life. I don't know how far to push or how far is too far. So I just push...push real hard and proper.

I am dizzy as I type these words...nausea is high at an 8 and the pain level in/on my left skull is a hard 7. The loss of Hearing in my right ear is becoming problematic - some day's worse than other's... or like,that's the way it seem's please. I still have the extraordinary noise's going on inside both ear's and my right ear continue's to swell/make full sensations. These are the thing's I live with every day of my life...I do my damnedest to keep my heart from getting bad and keep my Spirit's high as possible. This is where I get my energies from.

Love and peace,
Mario aka Big Bear