My visit with my therapist was not all I had hoped it would be. I left the office feeling as if a task had not been completed...or, one of those weird-vibe-in-the-air,things that I sometime's just miss from whence it came. Unfull-filled(?) Knowing sometimes that I could'nt hear a word he was saying over the "white noise" machine...Oh Honey, it is true!!! White folk can make noise that's called white noise!! Anyway's, we went through what I would call, "Verbal-Rock-Skipping-On-A-Large-Lake-Placid"...bless his heart, he was able to keep from yawning two or three times.
I really do expect to get something out of Theraputic Session's...no matter, how pissed off I may be, or how fucken sad I am because, MY LIFE HAS CHANGED B-4 MY EYE's!!! I can't drive my car...MY Starbuck's Coffee Company released me three weeks ago!!!, because, at this moment I am unemployed!! I am being considered handicapped!!!...then there are times I am so tired,so exhausted, sad, blue, and really don't know what to do...that sometimes I wonder, can it really be so bloody bleak...GOOD GOD!, I am going deaf...for real...slowly...
My therapist needs to know these things, I suspect. Maybe next week I'll get a Full Mental Enema...
This is why I expect something from my Theraputic Sessions...there must be steps walked forward and kept on The Trail. I tell you now, it is true that evil will play tricks on me - so I face this invisable enemy My Face to meneire's Face.
I am a survivor of many obstacal's I have had in my Life's Path...from early childhood, teen years, and as a young man...I share these word's now, because, I have NEVER felt so defeated so fast into the fight. I deserve to live life in peace and leave my Warrior paints at home...but Damnit!! If I don't fight this enemy full force...I would know what "unfull-filled" feels like, all over again...and again...
This is why I expect something from my Theraputic Sessions!
You'll get through this. Your quality of life lies in your family now and we are all here to support you. In all the research that I have done on Meniere's disease I know that it is not easy to live with. I wish you enough...
ReplyDeleteThank you Ande'. Your words are dear to me. What does, "I wish you enough..." mean?
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine what this has been like for you. I wish there was more that I could do for you. I hope you realize that I will be here for you through the good and the bad. You are a wonderful person and I love you with all of my heart and soul. It is just you and me kid.... I will be here for you through it all! With all of my love, Brenda
ReplyDeleteHey Mario, sign language is a great idea. I think I will join you on this quest. I know they have books and dvd's at borders book store. I will check into this for myself and we can have a silent conversation just me and you someday...hehe Best to you and the family.
ReplyDeleteAnde'!! I GOOFED and just noticed you sent this out!! Thank you so much Sweety Pie!! As of today, have made contact's on persuing ASL and product's for the home. Will keep you posted Cousin...and will keep closer eye on own blog too. XOXO
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